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Thursday, September 27th, 2007
7:45 am - This is so funny, some of you have no idea.....
........so, I post for the others

ladylili's LJ stalker is factionfoto!
factionfoto is stalking you because they saw your picture and fell in love.. They are also slowly poisoning you!

LiveJournal Username:

LJ Stalker Finder
From Go-Quiz.com

*EDIT* thought that this would freak you guys out a bit......

He hasn't been on my friend's list in 3 years. :/

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Thursday, June 7th, 2007
10:40 am - so my car......
was broken into this morning.


yes, this happened before, in december.

nothing taken this time, b/c there was nothing to take...but they distroyed a pair of sunglasses that were in there.

i wish the fuckers would stop violated my Stella....poor Stella :(

current mood: gloomy

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Monday, May 28th, 2007
12:47 am - yep.....
it's my birthday.

You can praise me now.....it's ok :)

current mood: geeky

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Friday, October 13th, 2006
9:57 am - oh, joy.
My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
ladylili goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Helen of Troy.
crazyrennie tricks you! You get a used tissue.
greenferret01 tricks you! You get an eraser.
injured_joe gives you 14 red-orange coffee-flavoured nuggets.
ladykerridwen gives you 9 purple blueberry-flavoured jawbreakers.
matrixleap tricks you! You lose 21 pieces of candy!
ralphmyhippie tricks you! You get a used tissue.
roller56 tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy!
the_chaos_opera gives you 17 blue vanilla-flavoured gummy worms.
wolfdaemon tricks you! You get a 3.5-inch floppy disc.
wunderworks gives you 9 light green apple-flavoured gummy worms.
ladylili ends up with 27 pieces of candy, a used tissue, an eraser, a used tissue, and a 3.5-inch floppy disc.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

current mood: busy

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Tuesday, September 5th, 2006
3:58 pm - Disillusioned
it's amazing the things that go thru our mind when we find out that everything we thought we knew could be a complete lie.
you try to tell yourself that it's not true, that you know otherwise and all these things you're finding out are false. there is no way your radar couldve been that much off that this completely blindsided you
many of us may find ourselves in this situation in our lifetimes, i'm afraid. these can be when dealing with people we know or facts we always thought were true.....sometimes they're little ones, sometimes they're big ones.

the big ones are the hardest, of course.

i have been thru 3-such blind-siding events in my 23 years:

the first was when i was 19 and it had to do with my family
the second was when i was 21 and it had to do with my boyfriend at the time
the third happened today and it had to do with the spiritual leaders that some people i care about very very much follow.

i wont go into details here about who, so don't ask.

those who know me know that i am not, in the slightest bit, religious. for the most part, i dont even consider myself spiritual. but there are times when i desire to communicate to something greater. i have my usual outlets and ways of communicating, but for some reason, today, i decided to do some research. i decided to look up possible groups that believe like i do and there was one group in particular

what i found, instead, were a multitude of sources that shocked me. Plagiarism, false credentials, kiddnapping charges, suspected involvement in the death of babies (later proved innocent), many many many aliases, and so many lies.

these are not just the misdeeds of a person...these are the doings of a spritual leader. someone i know (or thought i did) and liked and to some degree, respected. what bothers me the most is that i have friends who follow them. in their quest for spiritual guidance, the seek the answers to their questions from these leaders. it doesnt matter what religion i am speaking of either, what matters is that this could have catastrophic results

now what do i do? tell my friends of my findings and risk loosing friendships over it? and what if this effects their faith so much, they loose it? or do i keep quiet and see if anything happens? if something does happen, am i partly to blame if i couldve somehow let people know?

the only thing i can do is research. i'll keep my thoughts and fears to myself from those who will no doubt be hurt for now. i sent the information i had found to 2 parties. one who knows said leaders (but is not a follower) and one who doesnt. i'm hoping that from each of their perpesctives on the situation, they will be able to help me decide what how to go about this. i will continue to do research. i have been trying to find something that maybe proves that all these stories and allegations are false, but to no avail. when i finally have as many facts as i can gather, i will present them to those i care about and step back. i will let them chose and decide for themselves......i just hope that is the right thing for me to do

it makes me wonder how many people out there really do their research before picking a religion/faith/church/temple/mosque/etc... to follow, as well as research on who is leading their chosen place of worship

current mood: discontent

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Monday, August 28th, 2006
4:25 pm - Barbies
today has been a day from Hell....so, instead of bitching about it, i will post this:

BarbiesCollapse )

current mood: aggravated

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Friday, August 11th, 2006
9:07 am - "snap" goes my back, "crackle" goes my knuckles, "POP!" goes my bed...
my morning started our with a pop.....
because my bed at my mom's house is a twin size, when Sebastain stays over, we have an air mattress on the floor too. We take turns switching for eachother. i'm on the bed for a few nights, him on the mattress, then we switch for a few nights. well, last night was my turn for the mattress. this morning, i woke up about 20 minutes before my alarm was supposed to go off. knowing i had 20 more minutes of sleep, i sat up to turn over and *POP!*

my hand went right thru the mattress. it was a cheap one, so it was only about $15 and it lasted a long time for that price (longer than any mattress i've taken out to Faire) but i was so sad it had to pop BEFORE i was supposed to get up.

laughing at me, Sebastian moved as far over as he could on my little bed and i squished up next to him and we pretended to sleep until my alarm went off

one week from today, Sebastian and I sign our lease. then we'll start the moving process.....then we'll get to sleep in the same bed again....woot!

i can't believe it's only a week away...i am so excited and SO ready for it.

last night was a blast. We had to go pick up my car and my desk from Donna and Eric's and we stayed for dinner. Donna made her Curry Chicken (best damn curry chicken. ever.) and Tim, Krista, Donnna, Kendra, Sebastian, Anthony and I all watched the stupidest reality show in Sci-fi. a 3-hour marathon of "Who want to be a Superhero?" or something...Eric played his game and made comments on the show here and there.

it's a stupid show.
and i'm completely hooked.


tomorrow, Lunch with Krista, Tim, Tyra and Rob, followed by finishing packing up Sebastian's place.

Sunday: Finish packing my place and clean house for Mom and Sister's return.

next week will be more packing.

i may also be starting a new project. more details on that as it develops :)

current mood: tired

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Monday, July 17th, 2006
1:57 pm - open season
it's been a really bad day.

spent my lunch hour crying

fuck it. i could use a hug.
only 2 hours until Sebastian picks me up....then i'll get my hug.

current mood: crappy

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Friday, July 14th, 2006
11:41 am - vibes
i'm feeling a little....disconnected lately

you ever have one of those "the world is out to get me and people are turning on me" kinda feelings?

thats how i've been feeling lately.

like i'm being ignored or punished for something, and i really dont know why.

bah. its probably just one of those wierd vibes i'm getting for no reason.

current mood: distressed

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Wednesday, July 12th, 2006
8:02 am - hehehe
Meet Animated KylaCollapse )

Meet Animated SebastianCollapse )


ever have one of those moments where you just want to create something, but you aren't sure where to start
that was me last night
well, today I was struck with ideas. lots of them. it's been a long time since that has happened. so, at lunch, i grabbed my notebook and i just started writing. a lot.

good things may come. stay tuned.

current mood: busy

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Wednesday, July 5th, 2006
8:31 am - Birthday wishes
Happy Birthday Tyra!!!

enjoy your day at the spa :)

love you!

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Friday, June 23rd, 2006
9:33 am - I am addicted
to Sudoku.

seriously, i thought those puzzles would be kinda boring, but i tried one yesterday. oddly enough, it was thrilling.
i bought a puzzle book yesterday that only has a few in it....i think i may go back and just get a whole book of Sudoku.

most people who know me well know that numbers and i do not mix well in any way, but these are just too addicting.....

i need help.

current mood: amused

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Tuesday, June 20th, 2006
8:23 am - D-unit
The rules:
1) Comment
2) I give you a letter
3) Think of ten words that start with that letter
4) Post them in your livejournal with explanations of why they're relevant to you
5) Give letters to people who comment on yours

and crazyrennie gave me "D"
1. Dreams~ sometimes, they're all you need
2. Dork~ yeah. thats me
3. Dance~ you figure that one out
4. Dare~ you can't always pick "Truth"
5. Dogs~ i like mine more than i like most people
6. Daisy~ i miss that dog more than anything
7. Dawn~ the best middle name to have. ever. (Killa knows)
8. Dr Pepper~ the soda of the Gods
9. Douche-noodle~ i use this phrase way too much
10. Dublin~ i will go there someday

current mood: ditzy

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Wednesday, June 14th, 2006
3:51 pm - Baby soon!
no, no....not any baby of mine

Kendra went into labor this afternoon

Krista, Katie and Tyra, you will all be getting calls from me as soon as the baby boy is born and i get a call from Kendra's mom or Anthony or someone.

woot! i'm so excited to be Auntie Kyla again!!
(as long as i'm not Mommy Kyla, i am a-ok with that) :)

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Thursday, June 1st, 2006
1:36 pm - interesting......i'm boring.
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Human Priest


Humans tend to be the ones in the middle. Not as sexy as the Night Elves; not as stumpy as the dwarves or gnomes. As a human, you pretty much go with the flow of things.

As a priest, you are mostly concerned with others. You like to be sure that everyone is safe and healthy - because, if they die, you might get booted.

Find out your real-life WoW race and class at QuizGalaxy.com

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Thursday, March 30th, 2006
11:27 pm - shut the fuck up.
Dear fucker,

ok, i am posting this as public because i am sick of the shit.
i've been deleting them and ignoring them for months now, and i'm done.
you know who you are, even if i don't


stop sending me links to other people's journals telling me "hey, look what the Asshole did now!" or "guess who he is fucking!"

i don't care.
i don't give a flying fuck.
i don't care about what new shit Sukhvir has pulled.
i don't care who he knocked up.
i don't care who he has fucked over now.
it's their fault for getting involved with the root of all evil in the first place. they're all adults. they're all "Big Boys and Girls" who can make their own decisions

as far as i'm concerned, Sukhvir Daniel Gill is dead. he has been for almost 2 years. if i really think about it, the Sukh that i knew never existed, he was just a virus that came, made me sick and left.

"But he's an Ass!"----no fucking duh, Douche-noodle
"But he's hurting other people!" -----gee. shocker.
"You should know what he's been up to!" ------why? so i can remember the hell he put me thru? so i can remember the pain and the hours i spent curled up in a ball, naked on my bathroom floor, crying until i couldnt breathe? so i can remember what it was like to be truely alone? so i can remember the nightmares i had?

why the FUCK would i want to remember all that?
more importantly, why the fuck do you insist on reminding me?

i have moved on.
believe it or not, i have a life without Sukhvir.
i have a wonderful family, great friends and an amazing boyfriend who i care for deeply.

in fact, a lot of us have moved on from him.
and thats exactly why he's moving onto other people.
thats how evil works.
what do you expect from me? from others?
do you expect his evil to die? bc you exposed it on FUCKING LJ!?!?
good fucking luck.
save your bullshit for someone else.
stop posting it on my LJ

get a fucking life.

current mood: chilled to my bones

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Wednesday, March 2nd, 2005
7:12 pm - if i were LJ God
hehehe...this made me giggle....i stoled this from Paul =)

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current mood: amused

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Thursday, January 20th, 2005
12:27 am - Friends Only
This is now a FRIENDS ONLY journal

comment if I know you and you want to be added =)

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